My Hell

2009-07-02T02:52:00.003+08:00

hi.i`m here.cant sleep but at the same time nobody to tok to.or should i say there is nobody i can tok to about my feelings and thoughts.watched transformer already.alone.haven watch movie alone since long ago.it actually feel kinda peaceful watching alone.think will kinda get used to this feeling.

alone.

yea...i miss her alot.wanna noe how is she getting along.but i cant.all i have left is what little pride in me.just wanna keep the little pride in me.sometimes i being thinking i should have being more tolerant.just take it and dun be so demanding.how she treats me can not be impt.as long as she is happy and i`m with her.but its no longer possible.all because i wanna be selfish and chnage things.i hope she is doing fine.and when she find her right one.i will give her my blessing.

2009-06-25T19:52:00.002+08:00

here i am back again in my own world.so long never update alrdy and lots of things has happened.happy sad all.someone has step into my life and had left alrdy.whats left behind is those foot prints.

broke up 3 months ago.guess the struggle is to nothing.deep down dun really wanna let go but i have to.i have to.hope she will find her right one.someone who can give her everything she wants or needs.hope she find her happiness.i`ll just stay away from the crowd.be alone in my little corner hoping everyone leads a happy life.i`ll be contented.

had lunch with ling on tues.haha..she is so different.enjoy eating with her.the only girl who can really eat with me.comfortably.

that`s all i guess.
i will forget.i will.

2008-09-06T17:17:00.002+08:00

just got back not long ago from my tioman trip
fun fun fun=D
though the houseflies is like free flow so eating is not such a pleasure

BUT BUT BUT
THE SNORKELLING IS FUN FUN FUN
can see all sort of corals,fishes and sea urchin
den went cannoeing.time passed damn fast
soon it was time to head home
the travelling trip is longggggg freaking lonngggggggg

i do hope to go back again if i can someday=D

2008-07-09T04:00:00.002+08:00

today i didn`t went to work.
cause i injure my leg yst while playing soccer.
can`t really move about.whole day was practically lying on my bed msging amy

met up with amy last sat.
the first meeting.
had dinner and movie and morning came.
having this different feeling,a comfortable feeling
very nice though=D

2008-07-03T05:24:00.002+08:00

recently i`m quite troubled
lots of things.how?

started work badly today.
the new chef SUCKS!
F HIM.
jam the whole kitchen and we,runners, run like hell
lousy inexperience bitch,a roadblock in the middle of the expressway.
running non-stop for the past 4 hours and receive a msg
a msg saying to wish me all the best and a blessing?
thanks eh.i almost breakdown losing all my mood.

smoke 3 cigg today..its been quite awhile since i smoke.
need a break today.
i`m just so tired

2008-06-17T05:19:00.002+08:00

i am supposed to be sleeping now like every normal human beings should be doing right now.
but i just woke up after few hours of sleep!oh man.

i`m feeling kinda lost.
what am i suppose to be feeling right now.
i need a light to lead me the way.haiiii.

2008-04-09T04:09:00.003+08:00

today went back to work after a day of rest.and yet i`m getting tired already.wahahaha.i`m just so lazy.today learn a few wine names.oh man...it`s so difficult can.arhhhh.headache ah.today most of the time i`m washing this and washing that.i feel like a dish washer man.siannnn.
ate my dinner at 12am.i`m like so freaking hungry la.only left some lieftovers but still....i ate it.damn hungry.BO BIAN.

tommorrow zhang is not working.only left me to work alone.i`m gonna be so bored.hope time pass quickly.time pass slowly when i`m at my station.time pass damn fast when i`m having my break.zzzzzz.

SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH MY CLOCK.

2008-04-08T00:09:00.002+08:00

this is the 2nd week of my work already.still trying my best to get used to it.still struggling.i need more time.all the wine names is getting me headache.it seems that the things that is bothering me is not just the headache,there`s also the heartache.hmmm.

today is my rest day.just the first week and i`m already so looking forward to the day off.hahahahaha.i`m just so slacker.LOL.shouldn`t work so many days.i think i should also put some time for my friends yea.must balance myself out.

2008-04-04T04:16:00.001+08:00

2nd day of work.everything is going smoothly.starting to get used to the environment slowly.today time pass quickly.so generally today is a good day.

however,i`m feeling abit down.

2008-04-02T04:18:00.003+08:00

Today is a tiring day but a fufilling one too!
morning just reach home after staying over at denise bbq.Well,i really am glad that i did turn up for it ya.hahaha.i did enjoyed myself=D

then have to sleep awhile and wake up to head for my first day of work.damn!really feel like rotting.when i start work things start to get better.it isn`t boring at all.alot of things to learn on the way.and got people praise me leh.LOL.teck huat is a fast learner.WAHAHAHA
i got quite afew names over there:
chris
huat
chua
teck huat
hua(WTF)

end work at 2am and finally got into the company transport at 3+am.during the journey home i`m really tired.half sleeping half wake.arhhh~~~~heng tml not working.hao ah!

2008-03-18T10:49:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!=DD

had quite a fun night yst.many first time for many thing.hahahaha.changi hospital is really spooky ya.and and and.....geylang is really very interesting.LOL.

2008-03-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

Celebrate my birthday yst with my buddies.went to eat chongqing steamboat with denise ivan zhang weida eric shawjun.kush join us for movie after eating.kinda late for the slot we booked so have to watch at a later slot.went drinking after that.LAO DE came to join me for drinking.HAHAHAHA.kinda drunk.headache till now.arhhhhh

2008-03-09T05:03:00.002+08:00

yea,today is my chinese birthday.21 eh...hmmm...i`m only 20 this year la.LOL.suddenly wanna make me feel so old.went to my ah ma house to celebrate.its been a long time since anyone celebrate for me.my ah ma is very delighted to have me celebrating there!=DD

feel so paisei to be in the spotlight.all my relative singing birthday songs for me.awwhhh.LOL.and i got many hongbaos.wahahaha...makes my bank abit happier.HAHAHAHAHA.after that we had a dinner downstairs at the coffeshop.its been so long since ah ma step out of the house to eat.she usually dun leave the house due to her poor health.so i feel really happy that she wans to go out and have dinner.=DD

today been a great day for me.hahaha...wish everyday will be the same as today.WISH

2008-01-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

i wanna thank so much to the TAN SISTERS!!!They are simply so sweet ya!For them to cheer me up when i am feeling really very down.I felt so touched~thanks for the choco!=)

Well, i guess that`s it.Just have to serve NS for extra 2 months.I guess time pass by quickly huh...hope so ba.I`m am tied down with so many assignments with so little time to finish.Ahhhh...grad soon is not such an easy task afterall!

2008-01-19T02:07:00.001+08:00

Today had my FYP exhibition...all went smoothly.That marks the end of the FYP!!!!!!Met up with SINN...so long nv meet up already.AND I SAW WEN...oh my,she look so different la!Primary school so tiny now grow so big liao...and her face very cute eh.lol

Next week gonna be tough.With lots of unfinished assignments..i`m so dead.

2008-01-17T00:13:00.001+08:00

YAYAYAYA...i`m done with my NS medical checkup yo!!!!!

PES A~

The whole process is funny.Initially i am very stress about the blood test cause i heard it is very painful,but dennnnnn....i dun feel a thing at all!!!In fact, i think it is pretty fun and smooth going lei.Now left the napfa to worry for.I must pass my standing board jump this time...AND I WILL!

2008-01-12T16:42:00.000+08:00

i`m so unhappy recently,i feel so down.sian la!finding no motivation to go on.wanted to gym but end up sleeping cause i was too tired.school work is overloading,with tight schedule on hands i have really have no much time to enjoy.Next week FYP exhibition and also my NS medical checkup.i so hate injections!And also marine business got a freaking hell report to do....i find it very hard to complete la...arghhhh

2007-12-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

I finished the full marathon!!!!!!!!Finally a full marathon finisher leiii...lolx.The long and tedious journey but i make it through.It took me the hell 5 hour 26 min to finish though.I had to stop during halfway because my legs cannot take the strain anymore...so i walk mostly for the last 10 km.Thus i cannot catch up with weida and shen yong..we all have a interval of 30 minutes reaching the finishing line respectively with weida being the first, followed by shen yeong then me.Now my legs feel like breaking....walking is also a tedious job now.

But but butttt.....I THINK ITS ALL WORTH IT!=)

2007-10-03T03:20:00.000+08:00

Great day.Met up with SINN for dinner.

Happy belated birthday sin!

Had dinner and watched a movie,i pronounce you chuck and larry.Very hilarious show!Highly recommended.Hahaha,something i always cannot figure why.Everytime i met up with sin,she somehow always manage to look prettier.Her dress sense is abit different from before.Kinda not used to the new her but hey,it looks great!lolx...suitable for her actually.Though just a short catch up,IT WAS GREAT!=)

2007-09-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

Now having my holidays...like finally got holidays after 1 year.Cause year 3 doesn`t have any attachment.Though my holiday finally came,i wish it never came too.Cause i am left with nothing to do!Think i can be in the new movie...HOME ALONE 5~zzzzz

Staying home whole day is crap....i even behave like aunty nowadays...which i don`t think so la!LOL...so now i am here talking to myself to kill time.Guess as long as i don`t log on to msn....i am no different from being MIA.No ones will notice i guess....LOL

2007-09-01T02:55:00.000+08:00

Ok....here i am.Been quite some time since i last blogged.Now having my holidays but yet i don`t seem to enjoy.Not in the mood i guess.People around me ain`t exactly very happy.If being in a relationship is such a torture...it should end quickly.Its just so complicated.

Think i need some time to get away and sort out some thinking of mine.I can be so used to life.So used to people,things and routines.What if 1 day all are to change,i cannot adapt quick enough.Mustn`t develop too much feelings i guess.Need to stay away awhile so this feeling of bonding won`t be that strong.Maybe a way of protection for myself.Cant seem to understand people at all as days pass by.Just seem so far....so changeable...

How i wish things can be kept the same forever....like simple and predictable.

2007-07-30T10:12:00.000+08:00

Haha...feeling much relaxed now.=)
Almost clear all my projects like ship design and floating production.Even finish my ship design presentation leiiii...so content now.Now left with FYP thing only.But still,i can rest abit.Feeling kinda flabby thesedays,i shall run today!

Oh ya,the move i acting now is showing in all cinema...FLASH POINT~~~!!!
lol...i`m donnie....wahahahaha

2007-07-27T23:27:00.001+08:00

Really wanna thank mama and lao de for their help today.If not i`m still stuck in my ship design.Really appreciate them alot.They are such kind souls.Feeling kinda lousy or perhaps abit down.It`s my fault.Being a lazy ass and dragging my friend down with me.Causing people inconvenient is too much.Now i`m feeling very coped up.Don`t know why,not in my right mind now.Sometime i think of it,i`m not such a nice person afterall.Why am i not?Just hope i am useful to people.Causing the people around me unhappy makes me more unhappy.I should learn to swallow it up.It`s time for me to learn perhaps.Just wanna bring smiles to people face but not frowns.

2007-07-17T15:13:00.000+08:00

Yesterday had my napfa test...gek xim ah....i got all 5 points for every station but failed my standing board jump.So all effort gone down the drain just like that!!!!!Don`t know why i just can`t jump...shall starting eating frog leg porridge everyday liao!JUMP JUMP JUMP~~~

2007-06-27T01:02:00.001+08:00

Today went back to school to practice my comana.The more i do it..the more blur i think i`ll be.I`m like a lost ant in the amazon forest la.After that went to clementi to have dinner with mama they all.Order something call assam curry fishhead.Never eat before,ok la,taste not bad lo.Kinda kai wei.Then after that headed home.Heng ah,my mother cook porridge so i will have to eat out anyway.I don`t take porridge,i only eat congee.So went gym to find my confident again.=)

Ship designing test coming soon,its on next monday!Doomed,i`m like kinda stress la.I don`t wanna fail please.

2007-06-21T01:46:00.000+08:00

Group photo from the chalet

my best buddy in class!

2007-06-15T02:25:00.000+08:00

Just returned from chalet yesterday.Enjoy very much.Kinda first time enjoy throughout the whole chalet.Hahahaha,now i missed it so much.Think my chalet fever haven cool down yet,it always takes long for me to return to normal state.Lol,wonder this will take me how long since its so funnn!

First day of chalet have to attend the PPP thing.After that went for a foot massage~~~Damn pain la.This time really pain.I think i really will lead a short life,everytime i go sure say my body full of problems.Zzzzz.

Then went to eugene house to carry stuff.Then reached the chalet and i become maid huat!Singapore product.Peeling potatoe skin~~first time doing such chores.At home i just sit around and daydream lei...peel until want vomit blood.So many potatoes and i didn`t eat any.Lol...Then they started drinking and playing cards.I am practically eating and eating the whole night.Celebrated shi ming birthday.Happy birthday to shi ming~Wanted to run but like more fun staying put in the chalet so never run.But feeling very fat so i went to the room to do push up.So awkward la.Having 2 lovebirds in the room and i pumping in a corner,like so extra.Haha,never mind.Xin jing zi ran liang.Too little beds la,some managed to slept while some no place to sleep.My mama sleep on staircase eh.So poooorrr thing la,HAHAHAHA.

Then woke up in the afternoon and ate mac.-.-Kinda hate mac but really nothing to do.I don`t eat anything i will really evaporate into the thin air.Then went to rent bikes and cycle to kayak.ITS SO FUN LA!Its been so long since i kayak,i like the feeling of it.It makes me so happy and forget all unhappy things.Feel so free.Shi ming got seasick and return shore first.Lol,never seen anyone seasick while kayaking before.I`m like so amazed.But sadly only play for 1 hour then have to return back.BUT ITS OK!I`M CONTENT ALREADY~=)Cycle back and went running.I run till safra chalet resort.Kinda far i think.I never knew safra is near east coast park.Last time i stay there i thought its at changi.Wanted to go swimming after my run but never due to some reason,so just rest and watch tv.Then went to buy dinner and i ate alot.Got stingrey,white clams,rojak bla bla bla.Oh ya...CURRY PUFF!!!!!Nice Nice NICEEEE.It`s a sin to eat so much but it`s more sin not to eat!After dinner went cycling with shi ming and coco.Cycle till safra chalet there and talk some crap stuff.Don`t know why will talk until out of point.Lol....all the craps.Return back to watch my show la.Then went to sleep.First time sharing bed with girl,like so paisei la.Heng i not very big size if not more paisei.But its my mama la,so its ok!CRUSH HER!Sheng zhi damn funny.Making fun of him when sleeping.Then suddenly royal rumble.Mu ai zhen wei da ah.Hahaha,coco like gone berserk.Protect me from shengzhi lei,oh myyy,i feel so loved la~LOL.Can`t really sleep at first,don`t know why.

Woke up next day and checked out.Went vivo for lunch.Think is cause i need to vivo to collect my jeans so they all decide to go there eat.Thanks eh...haha.Eat dim sum then headed home.

END OF CHALET=((((
First time i really enjoyed myself throught the 2 days of chalet.Normally second day will have nothing to do then will be very bored.But this time really fun.OH MY GOD la,i miss it so much.I wanna chalet again!!!!Now feeling kinda quiet at night.Suddenly not used to the quietness=(((

2007-06-08T01:54:00.000+08:00

Hahaha,finally my common test ended!Yeah~~~~can relax ler.=)

Went for a hair cut today,cut short my back like finally la.Always keep long abit sian,time for a new hairstyle.Lol.Third year sucks big time!Especially in my course,no rest at all since yr2 till now.And now the modules all like buddha chant book.Read le also don`t understand the terms.ZZZzzzZZZ

I wanna watch gui ah gui ah!

2007-05-24T11:00:00.000+08:00

Feeling quite down actually.Don`t know why but it just make me sad.Things that cannot be undone.Wanna talk to someone but just no one is there.

Funny,i was telling my friend about my 'love life'.I had 4 girlfriends.Their name is 5kg,10kg,15kg and 20 kg.I love my 10kg girlfriend best.We share a home together.It not own property or rent,its share by others people.It`s the gym yea.Hahaha,everytime i go i will sweet talk with my gfs and carry them as much as i can.See,i can be such a loving bf.=)
Hahaha,my friends say i am a loser,hallucinating and need a doc.

2007-05-19T02:49:00.000+08:00

ZzzzzZ.....i simply totally very super abhor ship designing.This is very sickening module la!Today i redo my drawing and realised i made a mistake and have to redo again.I really feel like giving up la...always redo and redo.Not getting anywhere.Today first time wear formal to school.I feel so....mature?Hahaha,like i really grown up.I like this feeling.=)

Oh ya,i am invited to my cousin 21st birthday!Like first time la...must be fun huh.21st birthday leh..must be special right.Wahaha,but getting a present is a headache man.What should i get for her?Nowadays like alot of things to say.And yet there nothing i can say.Weird huh.If i can,i wish i can build a talking robot friend.So it will always be there for me when i need one.Will truly listen to what i say and not just yaya me.I wanna study robotic liao~!

2007-05-15T01:27:00.000+08:00

Today had my shipdrawing test.It`s 30% of the whole module and i fail it.Just some crap thing happen and all the work lost then i have nothing to hand in.I just hate computer program related modules,always make me fail.Teacher say if i fail the next time i going to repeat this module.SCREW HIM!So many projects coming.Headache ah..........

2007-05-04T01:35:00.000+08:00

Well,my ah ma has been discharged today,hope she recover fast fast.Have been watching My Girl dvd recently,quite nice.But too bad i don`t have much time to finish it any sooner.Will slowly finish it.=)

2007-04-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to watch wild hogs with weida,ivan and siang long.Quite nice eh,very funny.Watching the show suddenly make me think of what will it be like when i grow older.Will i have a boring life,boring job,being restricted from doing anything wild?Still in contact with my friends?Able to meet up and slack like what i am doing now?Will i be still in close contact with my friends in the future?

After the show it`s like about 2am plus plus.And also don`t feel like going home so decided to stay overnight outside talking.Also no much chance to meet up talk except for weekends.And it`s quite saddening that our clique is shrinking in number.Lesser and lesser people keeping in contact already.What`s left is just the few of us.And some of the "friends" are like not real friends.Reality can be quite a headache to me.Ivan say that i am a emotional person,shouldn`t let emotion get the control of me.Is it?When it about 6am plus,we headed home.Then i slept like a pig for almost whole day.Sian la,imagine weekend just ended like that.And what annoy me the most is that tuesday is a public holiday when i do not even need to attend school on tues.Wasted man!

2007-04-28T02:11:00.000+08:00

Today just had my Industry Attachment presentation.I don`t know why i just get to stress cause of presentation.Maybe i not used to it.Just hate talking to so many people staring at me.Feel kinda uncomfortable.I think my ah ma can discharge next week or something.Hope so,it sucks staying in hospital when nobody can entertain her.No tv,no chit chatting.Just rotting.

It`s a funny thing that there are quite a number of people online in my msn but i have none to turn to.So here i am talking to a blog?Oh never mind.Lots of projects coming in.The final year project especially.Hope nothing goes wrong.I really wanna do well in this sem.And i`m like looking for a part time job la.But can`t find any really very good ones.Haii,i`m feeling very tired.As in both mentally and physically.

2007-04-26T01:16:00.000+08:00

Just visited my ah ma first time since her operation yesterday.She`s in alot of pain.As in tears keep dropping from her eyes,she felt so helpless and so am i.She keep asking for injection to reduce her pain but it still not time yet.I think she must be real pain cause she really desperate,begging and keep calling the nurse.She even want to press the emergency button.It shows how pain she is in now.She even use say "tong long nurse injection".I feel so xin suan,i feel so heart pain.Because i have nobody to turn to so i am here talking to myself.

How to.

2007-04-23T02:16:00.000+08:00

Yesterday watched 200 pound beauty...very nice show..highly recommended.However,i wonder if people can accept that their partner had done plastic surgery before.Is fake acceptable???I don`t know if i could,but my friends can.Different opinion i guess.Something stupid really happen and it sucks!I totally hate it,but what`s done is done.Is it really i cant find anyone to trust in?

2007-04-18T01:11:00.000+08:00

Haiz...i`m quite moody..not feeling so good.Just when i thought things are going to turn out just nice.And things got complicated,i`m quite worried.

2007-04-17T08:49:00.000+08:00

How bad can it be....my ah ma is hospitalised.She had a fall,always so careless.Why is she so stubborn.I`m visiting her later,hope she`s fine.And next week i`m having my IA presentation and i don`t know what to include in my slides when i learn almost nothing.I`m just so STRESSED.

2007-04-16T02:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night i was doing sit-ups before sleeping,suddenly i thought of a question.Why do i even train so much for?For self confidents?For fun?For killing time?I don`t know.........Nowadays quite irritates me...everyday is raining and i cannot go for a sun tan.I`m too fair la!Hope this few days won`t rain so much.

Yesterday night i feel like getting someone to talk to.But i can`t find anyone to do so...even nowadays no much people is online.If i have a sibling that will be so nice.I can have someone to talk to anytime and i know that person will always be there.I`m quite looking forward for my little cousin.My aunt is pregnant,i`m so happy for her!Then i can have someone i can dote on.I will treat he/she like my own siblings~~!!!But then again,when my cousin arrived,i will be like 20 years older than my cousin.Is old enough to be uncle le lo....will there be an age gap?I may have nothing to talk about,maybe thinking will be different,maybe won`t even be on good term.Or maybe i don`t need to think so much,my cousin will have some siblings and don`t need me.Oh man.....

2007-04-15T02:48:00.000+08:00

Well......the holidays is coming to an end.School reopening tomorrow ler.....actually i`m quite looking forward to it.I wanna go back study la...i miss such life.New school term therefore stands for new start!Another new chapter of my life begins...=)

2007-04-12T03:27:00.000+08:00

Here`s a question....is there true love?Lets think of it...is it possible to continue in a relationship that has a crack?Doesn`t it affect anything?And how is it possible that a person can fell in love with a person whom he/she has just met.Can a person like a stranger?Someone whom he/she doesn`t know the characteristic and personalities of the opposite sex?Even so....when a couple goes into long term relationship,doesn`t the feeling fade away?

Just a random post.

2007-04-08T15:24:00.000+08:00

I bought a crumpler bag!!!!A new bag finally~~~~But i haven buy new shirts....arghhh

2007-04-05T01:59:00.000+08:00

Today went to west mall after work ended.Had dinner there and went for a foot massage.Quite pain leh...after massage on my way home still pain till now.They said my body not very good...say my bladder....kidneys...back and neck not very good.But seriously leh..it`s quite true about my back....will hurt sometime.Asked my to take more care of my body...huh huh.....think i wanna go for another session.lolx......

2007-03-25T23:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to watch Mr Bean Holiday with weida,ivan and shen yeong.Though its not very funny as compared with the old Mr Bean show,i still manage to laugh till my teeth drop.Ok,i admit i laugh damn easily...i`m lame.Lolx.I realise something from the movie.Something i should learn and i will...=)One should be optimistic...one should learn see things from a different view.Never put yourself down cause nobody will bother to pick you up...though life sometime can be abit tough...learn to enjoy it...just keep smiling...=)

2007-03-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

Thinking back...i have spend 19 years of life and what have i done?What have i achieve?I`m 19th...ain`t a child anymore...i should do something about it.I should behave more mature and do meaningful things instead of wasting my time doing nothing.Come huat...let`s grow up!I shouldn`t do silly things anymore.I must be hardworking and everything nice.I wanna get into a Uni and get myself a degree.....

2007-03-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

Today tao liang didn`t report for work.So i was spending the whole day rotting in the office alone.One hour feel like a month.Today one of the worker is injured.I heard his nail came off.He was holding a tissue pressing against his finger and there`s lots of blood on it.And his face is like so innocent...so humble.Man...i feel so sorry for him.So saddening out of a sudden.Think it must be very painful huh...like nail came off leh.PAINNNNN~~~~~~

2007-03-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

Today had my first OT in my life.Though i don`t want it.But for the sake of going into the tanks i had to go into OT.Wa...its very deep and the steps kinda dangerous to use.But its fun...sweat alot.LIKE ALOTTTT LA~Hahaha.reached home and had my birthday cake and KFC.My parents celebrate for me...Somehow i feel this year birthday like very long...almost these few days is my birthday.Lol......

Just now went running.I wanna slim down!!!!!!Here`s my 19th birthday wishes.To achieve 6 pacs and a tone body.And another small wish...pray pray...=)

2007-03-18T02:37:00.000+08:00

Just reached home.Went out with some of my close friends celebrate my birthbday.Very long never meet up like this and had fun for so long.Everyone is busy with their own stuff and so this is a rare opportunity.Ivan,siyuan,shaw jun,weida,shen yeong,eric,siang long,chee hau,yi hong and terry but jun hao and guo sheng cannot make it.Went to tian tian steamboat eat.Talk alot of crap.Laughing all the way....damn fun...=)How i miss those old days where we always hang out together.....now its like near impossible...but its not impossible...hahaha.After that some went home some went play pool and arcade.Crapping around....=)

This is the first time i enjoy my birthday so much la....Quite a few remember my birthday and sms me.Very surprise....How i wish every year will be like that....how greedy am i....hahahaha~~~~!!!

2007-03-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to fish & co to dine with chia, taoliang and chuan chu.Sort of celebrating my birthday la...hahaha...so nice of chia.

Today meet up with 2 PRETTY LADIES.Hahahaha,chu sin and pui sin help celebrate my birthday.So nice of them la...First time talk to pui sin la...kinda surprise...surprise surprise.Seen her be4 but den its like never seen her be4...lolx..Anyway...she got a nice voice...Its been so long since i got any birthday present ler....so i am freaking happy i got a present!Andddd....its hand made la....i love it.I think its the first time people sing me a birthday song other them my family.A treat from them...kinda paisei la..AWWWWWHHHHH..buay tahan....really touched eh..Its been awhile since i`m so happy...really enjoy today ya....A wonderful 19th birthday for huat.=)

Actually hor...i am not really that zi bei ma.Only sometimes ma.....say until so kua zhang.Aiyoooooo.......

2007-03-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

Heeeeee hoooooo haaaaaa.....i manage to survive this horrible sem!!!!!I PASSED ALL MY MODULES!3 cheers for huatttt~~~~~

Tomorrow have to return to the ugly place.Ahhh sian la...bless my soul.lolx

2007-03-14T01:25:00.000+08:00

HURREYYYY...tml mr chua don`t need to wake up at pathetic 515 and walk a lonely route to take a sickening bus to report at the DARK forbidden place isolated from the BRIGHT residential.I`m sicked!!!!Got a pretty nice clean sexy piece of MC.I can have a good rest tomorrow like finally...=)

But i am feeling unwell though....siannnnn.....Haha...i thought my mum forgot my birthday so i mention to her and she say my chinese birthday is on mon.This year special...its after my english birthday.So ya!lolx

2007-03-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

Yea yea.....today SUNDAY.
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But sad to say....such a nice day is not enough.So fast monday is coming.BoooooOOOO!!!~~~~~just hope tml the company got fire or electric supply cut off.HAHAHAHAHA!

Went ah ma house.Like very long never go.Great leh...my aunt was there.She was cooking dinner at 3pm cause the maid is on off day then she needs to go back home to cook.She gave me money again la....like so bu hao yi si...Guess what.My ah ma today smile at me.She very funny la...she open the lid to see the cup empty then keep quiet cover it back.So being the smart me go open see see.Its empty laaa!!!~~~~So i offer to pour her drink then she smile smile back....=)When i was leaving...she do the usual thing keep saying bye bye...waaa...damn saddening.

Then went home early cause i wanna go play soccer.OK...today not bad.Play some soccer....run abit....do pull up abit.BETTER THEN DOING NOTHING AT ALL!!!!lolx

2007-03-10T21:47:00.000+08:00

Two weeks had passed....YEAAA....four more weeks to go...24 more days to go......=)

My birthday is coming....going to 19 soon....older by one year liao....getting old.....think i should start going to kopitiam drink kopi with ah peks instead of gym.Lao pek pek...pek huat~~~!!!!

2007-03-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

Went to the pioneer mall to cut my hair.Saw 2 salon but i don`t dare to enter.I was like standing outside deciding whether to go in not.Like a fool.Its like for good looking people etc la...then i think of my face.Don`t want to go in....don`t wanna feel inferior la.Haiz...Dunno why i`m like that.Especially when the people inside are females.I feel more inferior....that`s why i prefer going to salon with male hairdresser.But its in jurong east la..so far...not convenient during attachment.

So on my way home i bought some noodles but my father bought fried chicken specially for me.He knew today dishes i don`t like to eat so he went to buy without saying.But then i also bought...kinda wasted his efforts.

2007-03-04T14:54:00.000+08:00

是否很惊讶讲不出说话
没错我是说你想分手吗
曾给你驯服到就像绵羊
何解会反咬你一下你知吗
也许该反省不应再说话
被放弃的我应有此报吗
如果我曾是个坏牧羊人
能否再让我试一下抱一下
回头望伴你走从来未曾幸福过
恨太多没结果往事重提是折磨
下半生陪住你怀疑快乐也不多
被我伤让你痛
好心一早放开我重头努力也坎坷统统不要好过
为何唱着这首歌为怨恨而分手问你是否原谅我
若注定有一点苦楚不如自己亲手割破
回头吧不要走不要这样离开我
恨太多没结果往事重提是折磨
下半生陪住你怀疑快乐也不多没有心别再拖好心一早放开我
重头努力也坎坷统统不要好过
为何唱着这首歌为怨恨而分手问你是否原谅我
若勉强也分到不多不如什么也摔破
好心分手每天播
可知歌者也奈何
难行就无谓再拖好心一早放开我重头努力也坎坷统统不要好过
为何唱着这首歌为怨恨而分手问你是否原谅我
若注定有一点苦楚不如自己亲手割破

2007-03-04T01:05:00.000+08:00

Today damn shiok ah...work halfday only.Hahahahaha.....reach home like 12 plus then slack.Wanted to gym but end up running and doing pull up.Enough to kill me....sweating like its raining.I love sweating...=)

Yea Yea....tomorrow sunday NO WORK.....HAO AH!!!!!!!!!!Shuang daoooooooooooooo.......but then like only one day free.Also abit sian.Arghhhh....hope mon never comes.lololololol

2007-03-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

Today at work is fun.Rode bike around the yard in the morning so i am out out of the office till lunch break.Then after lunch attend their meeting so today we not really very free doing nothing.=)

Feeling kinda uneasy today.All lives are precious.It`s true.

2007-03-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

Today don`t feel like going to work actually.I love sleeping during rainy days la...ok la...i love sleeping at any time of the day.The whole day is practically raining la...then i stay in the office for the whole day.Rotting at a corner wanting to sleep but cannot.Damn irritating...spoiled my mood.

But but but...today seem easier to pass as compare to yesterday.Don`t know why actually.Though its pretty boring today,time pass faster.Oh ya...very funny thing happen today.She was telling me some story she read then suddenly halfway i fell asleep.She was like WAKE UP!Hahahahaha...my sickness getting more serious.I can sleep anywhere anytime.After work i drop off at jurong point and decided to give myself a treat after such a long day of work.CURRY PUFFS!!!WOOOOTTTTTTT~~~~sweee ehhh.I think i too tired.I see a $2 note as a $10 note and gave it to the cashier.Then the cashier thought they took the wrong order.So paisei la...see wrong number.No face liao.hahhahaha!

Counting on 32 days....=(

2007-03-01T00:42:00.000+08:00

Sometime i feel sorry for the foreign workers.Few days back,i get to know that actually some had not gone back to their country for like 6 years.Kinda pitiful eh...then like when they want to ask for leave for 3 months.Its like almost impossible for them to apply that amount of period.Then they had to sound so humble everytime and had to smile always.

Recently my mum like kinda ill.No appetite to eat and vomit.Said is leg infection.Man.....hope she`s alright soon.

Oh ya....someone like finally tag my blog la...LIKE FINALLY....lol.....=)

2007-02-28T00:24:00.000+08:00

Haha...today quite in a good mood.Things gone quite smoothly for me today at least.Morning manage to take the company bus to go work.If not must take own transport very troublesome ah.But tao liang missed the bus and so she get to the company on her own.Most of the time is just chatting with tao liang to kill time.The manager decided to change our schedule and transfer us from the safety department to the hull section where we will go over to hull section only by next week.So now we sitting at a different office.She very funny la.Walk abit then like running around singapore like that...very easy to get tired.Think tomorrow she will suffer terribly la.Hahaha,think tomorrow will be very busy must walk around very often.Finally end work then reached home play dota.Then went gym with da and chee hau.After today my body like damn tired la.Think i need rest for one day.But then si yuan asked me to gym tomorrow.How how how how....super tempting la!!!!Then went to buy some cereal for breakfast.If not i have to eat rice in the morning la.I wanna cut down on carbo intake..i wanna diet!Thanks to chu sin then i remember i can eat cereal for breakfast.Muahahahhaha...another day had passed.

Counting on the rest of the 34 days.....=(

2007-02-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

Arghhhh...attachment starts today.Took cab to there and cost me like $10 la.Sian diao.Something good about this attachment cause i will be wearing the white uniform which is for engineers unlike my previous attachment i wear brown uniform which is the same as the workers.At least i feel better wearing this.=)

Today quite slack.Just went on board a ship to tour visit then stay at office till end work.Finally a companion during my attachment la.Got someone to talk with when i`m bored.Won`t feel so lonely eh.Tao liang quite friendly and easy to mix.She quite funny actually,abit nonsense.Not as dao as i expected.Hahahaha.But then like i need to take care of her eh.Well,i shall be angel chua for the following 6 weeks then.Hohohoho,bless bless.

2007-02-24T22:17:00.000+08:00

Just return home from town.On my way back in the train,i saw a small little girl.Freaking cute la..very hyper active.Keep walking around and doin very cute gesture.But her older bro like very cold and dull leh.Like so different,no similarities.She damn cute la,keep playing with her mum.How i wish i got a younger sis like her.I think i will always stay at home to play with her.She is a happy kid.=)

Hahaha,guess what.I just Realised my parents is jie-di lian.I always thought my mother to be very conservative type.Such a surprise.Lol.SOOOO cool la jie-di lian.One more day to enjoy and i will be suffering for the following 6 weeks.I need blessing.

Suddenly i realise how time pass by so quickly.Some of my friends already in army.Next year i will be going for NS...hopefully i dun retain that is.hohoho...i`m getting older=(

2007-02-23T04:48:00.000+08:00

Reach home not long ago.Went to catch a movie,Norbit with coco shengzhi chuang chu and xiao liang.Ok,the movie quite funny.But i feel its kinda saddening.Its similar to another movie i seen in tv few days ago.Is about this guy and girl who are old friends at very young age who had lost contact and finally got a chance to meet up.But,they cannot be together cause the girl is married.Feels kinda sad.Very wasted,shouldn`t have let the chance slip past.But but but,Norbit ending is a happy ones.They finally managed to get together and married.=) Unlike the one in tv which ended both not being together.Don`t know why such scene makes me especially emotional.I emo emo guy la.Hahahaha.....

Then eugene kunsheng and damien meet up with us to dine at cafe cartel.Very big serving huh.Makes me fattttt.Damn~neeeeedddd to diet desperately....Then coco left and we went to pub.Order 2 bottle of chivas.First time drinking with my classmates eh..haha...like know them so long first time outing.Almost all drunk except for kun sheng and me.Well,just got drunk like 2 days ago so keep my limit.Don`t wanna be drunk again later cant go home.I kinda enjoy drinking recently...this way i can forget all the things kept to myself.Should one day drink till i really really cannot make it.Like knock out or something.Then i can feel like a happy person.Like really optimistic who smile all day from the bottom of the heart.

Well.....i`m a happy person yea

2007-02-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE
AND
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST AUNT!

Today went over to my ah ma house to celebrate my aunt`s birthday.Yea,help her sing birthday song like only i sing la.Then got cake,kfc and pizza.Damn...getting fatter.MUST START TRAINING SOON.I wan my pacs~~~Wish my aunt kai kai xin xin...shen ri kuai le!

Then meet up with weida siyuan soe and aiman to gym.Its like less then 5 min walk from my house.Super convenient for me.First timer there and the stadium is like very big.The gym damn cool la.Very very big and lots and lots of new machines.Think i found my second home....my new love.Cannot expresss my excitment la...i`m crazyyyy.....Wooots~~~~

2007-02-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

Today is thursday,had my thermo paper.Kinda screwed up because i didn`t really work hard for it.Went to bukit timah plaza with chris to play pool.Then met alex and the group to town.Bought a slipper and a belt.More broke.Then waited for almost an hour at the bus stop den finally reach home.Damn tired.

I am sick of hearing this things and being asked about it already.Can anyone not remember this topic.Kinda irritating and uncomfortable.Today was damn disturbed because of this.

2007-02-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

Today is valentine day!!!
HAPPY VALENTINE DAY TO ALL~

Spent the day by going out with a few guys to town to shop for CNY clothes.Bought a shirt at ZARA and 2 casual shirt.Damn expensive.Damn broke.But still alot of stuff yet to buy.Sigh.Saw many couples hanging around town.See le damn pek cek.HAHAHA

2007-02-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

I`m just not understandable.
I have my own thinkings, my own problems.
Things that are kept to myself.
Perhaps its better this way.

2007-02-02T13:25:00.000+08:00

Had my marine engineering test yesterday.But i don`t even need to hand in my paper cause it`s blank.Two question but i can do none.I totally screwed it.I study so hard for theory but didn`t realise that the test do not have theory question.Fancy i study for exam and failed my test.10%!!!!!!!SHIT

Feeling quite down.I`m just so lost.What`s going on actually?

2007-01-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went for S.H.E concert.Yeaaaaa....very nice.The previous concert i was like so dead.This time i was more lively.Haha.After that went with hui min jocelyn and liting to jalan basha plaza nearby to eat.Then went to jo`s bro pub and slack.Shared a cab and reach home at about 4am plus.Very tired but enjoyed it alot.=)

2007-01-27T01:41:00.000+08:00

Haha.Today is my first time watching movie alone.Went bishan to watch.Its been awhile since i last step foot into junction 8.Kinda remember the past.Feels kinda lonely but its still ok.Deathnote 2 very nice to watch.Lucky i never miss it.Hahahahaha.But i didn`t get to hand in my IS assignment.Sian diao.

2007-01-26T02:46:00.000+08:00

Today i skip marine tutorial and em3b.
Did my PID IS project.I just screwed it up.
Midori gave me a massage.=)
Had a nice dinner like finally man.
Today is a good day.
Tomorrow will be better!

2007-01-21T03:28:00.000+08:00

This week hasn`t been a good one for me.I was like sick from monday all the while till saturday.Having abit of fever and cold.Worst still,i cannot rest properly as i need to rush my reports that was dued on friday.I also have trainings to attend.Hahaha,think i`m kinda busy for this week.My body feel so worn out,damn tiring.Shall get myself some valuable rest on sunday.Ngee ann open house had just ended.To think of it,it`s like the first time i went for the school open house.Been in school for 2 years and yet never went for even once open house.Hahaha,feel so loser.Still got lots of work haven do.Not in the mood to touch any school stuff,its like so uninteresting.I prefer gyming.=)

2007-01-13T20:53:00.000+08:00

Manage to wake up and reach school in time for training.Had poolslot and i feel like i am such a loser.I sucks in every thing.Whether it is speed,boat skill, boat control, dribbling or even stern dip.I feel like a burden.Yea,perhaps I AM A BURDEN!Ended the training with disappointment.

Things will start to go different from now on.I swear.
Here is my new year resolution.
Gym more...trained more to improve my fitness.
Attend more poolslot.
Start working to increase my pocket money.
The rest can wait.....

2007-01-12T13:19:00.000+08:00

Had a farewell dinner at marina on wednesday.Stanley is going in NS soon.Now i think back,it`s really amazing.Know him since sec 3 and now he is joining the army.It`s like so sudden so fast.Haiii....times really past quickly.Soon,we all will be joining the army.Quite a few of us went for the steamboat.It`s been awhile since i had dinner with my JVS buddies.Haha..i`m glad i didn`t missed this gathering..I really enjoy this dinner very much...=)

2007-01-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

School just started recently,not been a very good start though.
Failed a paper so far and its my core module.
Have to retest but yet i don`t feel like studying for it.
Seem so moodless these days.
Don`t feel like doing anything anymore.
Don`t ask why~

Suddenly i feel like having a sister so much.Someone i can confide in when i need.Someone to understand me and talk to me.Why am i a single child???Its seem so unfair.Can`t find anyone to talk anymore.I feel so alone.

Sometimes life is just so unfair.......

2006-12-27T01:13:00.000+08:00

Well,just came back from china.First time going overseas and everything looked so new to me.I`m so amazed by every little things such as the flight.Seeing the clouds outside the window was incredible.China was damn cold.Hahaha,enjoy blowing out white cold breath in the morning.It`s so fun.=)Went to nanjing, wuxi, hangzhou,su zhou and shanghai.I hate the people there.They sucks!Hate everything about them.Hope they fall down when snow comes.HAHAHAHA.I feel so fortunate living in singapore,cherish more what i have now.=)

Going to chalet tomorrow.Gonna miss out a few training days though.Sad....feeling kinda miserable now.Due to some matters which i cannot settle.Well,i feel so lost....=(

2006-12-10T07:41:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.Currently at amk mac with alex and ken(quoted from ken`s blog).Walking corpse is here!Yesterday went to lavander to collect my new passport.I have to use my new passport number instead of my current IC number.It`s damn irritating.I hate memorising numbers.FUG.

I felt like a chinaman yesterday.Reasons?Cause just now went Kbox with alex and ken in town.They were singing loads of english songs which sounds so strange to me.Don`t understand what they singing.I only chose chinese songs.I`m like a chinaman please!But still,i sang A ENGLISH SONG-i believe i can fly.WAHAHAHA.The session ended like about 4am.Then cab to alex house then went to mac to study.Ok,i admit i didn`t study.Lol.I slept while ken and alex were using the computer.Alright,i shall now go home and get some sleep.Had a enjoyable day though.WOOOT!=)

no reason

2006-12-08T02:18:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE HELL!!I seriously don`t know what`s wrong with my dad.In the middle of the night woke up bath then take his thing went to the coffeeshop to stay till morning and go to work straight.Say too noisy he can`t sleep and this happens everyday.My tv is not even loud please!If my mum can sleep soundly,i don`t see why my dad can`t.Obviously he is trying to find trouble with me.I hate it when he starts to give me attitude.FINE,LET HIM SAY.I WILL JUST KEEP QUIET.Don`t want to argue with him.

$%##$^#%$@%$#^

2006-12-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha....my first entry of this year!Never blog since 2 years ago.I dont`t know alot of things man,feel like noob.Common test sucks!
STUDY
STUDY
STUDY
IDIOT
My first paper like cannot make it leh.Only do part of it.

deep in my thoughts